After recent events, my life has taken a turn not sure whether it’s for the worse or the better time will tell. The hurt, the pain and the stress is well, at it’s highest. I wont go into details but I have done all I can and you can only put your case forward and people will chose to believe or not. In this case is a ‘not’.
This is my motto:
Living with integrity means:
Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships
Asking for what you want and need from others
Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension
Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values
Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe
I live by that, some don’t like the fact that I do speak the truth and that I do speak my mind. Life is no dress rehearsal. Life is life. Why spend you’re time tiptoeing around people. If they cause you pain and upset get rid of them. If they are a burden to your own integrity again get shut. Yes I have been accused of speaking too harshly and I have apologised and those apologises were accepted at the time, however now it’s clear I wasn’t forgiven for speaking too harshly. My comments were left within a vault of the mind to be used as ammunition. I feel sorry for those people. Those people know who they are. I stand by everything I say in life, I am human and I have made mistakes but I never make the same mistake twice. Those of you who are from my past will revel in all this drama, I say fill your boots and your pockets too. It is a sad existence that you have sat around waiting for the precise moment of failure. Failure is not always failure, I/we tried our best and it’s experience too. Children do not come with manual books on how to operate. There are some in this life who think they are above everyone and know better. The dumbest people I know are those that know it all, you all know who that is directed to. *smiles*
There isn’t anything that any of you can do to me to hurt me anymore than I already am. You see I was there from the very first moment, the first smile, first steps…not forgetting providing a safe warm enviroment in my own body for them to grow into a human being and giving birth. I am the ultimate person qualified to know, no one can ever take that away from me. So, I wish you all well on your new path to discovery. I am gone from your lives forever and these words will linger in the ether when I’m cold in a box.
It’s a pity, that intelligence and compassion were not your forte because you would not only understand you would have the capability to care and empathise with the given situation. You are all blessed with brutish force, vicious idealogy for which there is no cure to rectify that sorry situation. Bullying tactics, SAS task force mechanics and as much sensitivity as a wheely bin with one wheel…I am not bitter, I am a free spirit that has let go from what was asking for freedom…You will never know how much we did for you until you reproduce yourself and it is then that you will discover the real truth I know that now. It will be years before you understand. You have lost the ability to grow within the loving family you were born into…. and you all know deep down you are not qualified to give advice because you have never lived it yet.
You keep sending emails and text messages it’s a waste of time I am gone. Emails have been changed and the same with phone numbers. You can all say what you like to whoever you like. I am not going to change or wither under attack. Because I am gone, gone from your lives. So please go and live yours.
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I found my Karen Hill Tribe Dragonflies sitting lonesome in one of my many boxes of stash!
It’s Saturday so what shall I make today
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